Baby Makes Four

We're reading our pediatrician's book called The Vaccine Book. He asked us to read it before making any vaccination decisions. Last night I had pretty much decided that Elias would get only the Rotovirus vaccination. This was before I read that that immunization needs to be started before 3 months of age to be affective because it is a a series of shots and the virus is only potentially  "dangerous" until age 2. So now, I'm not so sure we will be getting any at all. We are taking any trips to countries that still have Polio outbreaks and the numbers on the hospitalizations per year for the other diseases we immunize against are in the 5's and 10's.

 I know that the big idea behind continued immunization of ALL children is to keep the occurrence of these diseases down and that I am not playing along if I don't immunize my own kids. I have considered that and I still feel like I'm making the right decision. I don't feel that my kids will be at risk for spreading the disease.

 By making the decisions not to immunize I am opening the doors to be labeled a conspiracy theorist, an alarmist, and even negligent. Ask me if I care, please! I know that I have done my research and know the facts, and they are not hogwash, my friends. People who blindly say that anything is good for their children without doing their own digging are not serving their kids. If you read the information provided by both the government and private research and decide that you are going with vaccinations then that's great. You made an inofrmed decision for your child. Just don't blindly follow any advice, especially if the health of your baby is at stake.

Dr appt. this morning says:

0% effaced, etc. Long and closed. We're going to use this information to have a relaxing weekend and we'll just pretend it will be a week or so and will be pleasantly surprised if something happens sooner.

I made zucchini soup tonight and Ryan went to the bakery for cookies. We're going to watch Halloween movies and pretend we're not waiting with crossed fingers for something totally out of our control. :)

Have a fantastic weekend! xo

Just adding the photo for 38 weeks before I'm no longer 38 weeks! ha. Taken this morning before school, I think I am looking at the cat who was sitting on the toilet glaring at me. 7:30 a.m. is weird at our house, very busy busy.

 Any time now, annnny time.

 *taps fingers*

I'll have Owen take a photo of me when he gets home. I will need to take one outside since I tried to get one myself indoors and it's just too dark to get a decent shot without a flash. It's very on and off cloudy today, very strange weather.

 After an entire day of contractions yesterday, I am mostly just tired today and feeling very weird emotionally. I have gone through a bunch of strange roller-coaster feelings in the last 24 hours ranging from WHHEEEEE, EXCITED! to "Bleh, shoot me."  As of now I am just tired. I need to go get Owen in 5 minutes and then work on a bunch of his homework. I just want to go lay in bed, so badly.

 My strep test came back good, I think that's the last of my invasive tests? No more blood work, etc. We are officially "just" waiting.


 *crickets*

 I had a scary episode this morning after I took Owen to school. I am so shaken and afraid now, I don't know if I will feel comfortable by myself until this baby is born.

 Of course I felt fine after sleeping all night and eating a big breakfast (well, raisin bran and a banana!) so I thought I would venture out and try to shop for a robe (I haven't had one in ages and I remember loving mine when Owen was brand new) and some other things while I still can. WRONG! *buzzer*

 I started to feel really hot and sweaty when I pulled in to park but it was still early and really very cool outside. It got to the point where I started thinking "I feel like laying down, I should go home" and then WHAM, total darkness. I mean, my eyes were OPEN and I couldn't see, it was scary. I waited a minute and got my head together (a little) and pulled the car down into a shady spot where no one was around so I could lay on my side in the car and call Ryan. I was super panicked at that time, I thought something was terribly wrong and I couldn't think clearly about what to do. Call an ambulance? Was that ridiculous? Just hang out in the parking lot until...? We only have one car, and I was in it!

 I stayed on the phone with Ryan and turned on the A/C really high and just sort of freaked out until the feeling passed. It felt like passing out or dying coupled with a serious panic attack and topped with the flu. I was the grossest shade of green, so kermity!

 After a while I decided I really wanted to try and get home so I stayed on the phone with Ryan and drove the freeway so i could pull over if I needed to and not be stuck at a traffic light and pass out. IT SUCKED, as you can imagine. 5 miles has never felt so far!

 I am home and in bed. I have been resting because I feel like I ran a marathon or something, my body feels really tired. Ryan came home and is picking up Owen right now and some soup and potatoes from Mother's Market for dinner. I am instructed not to drive by the hospital nurse but uh....I have a hard time following instructions, especially when there is no other way to get Owen to and from school every day. While I would LIKE to just rest and take it easy, it's just not a possibility while pregnant with your second child.

 In other news, the baby feels like he is digging a tunnel from which he will escape. New back pain, new pelvic pressure, etc. Maybe he is really working on getting out of the slammer. It would be very early, but I am prepared for anything.

 Did anyone else have fainting spells in late pregnancy?